|All 3 of us at Mount Vernon|
We left the restaurant that night standing a little taller, with tears in our eyes and smiles on our faces. We left there and said "that just made my week." That night in the hotel even seemed to go a little better. TLO probably didn't sleep any better than she had been, but I felt like I had a little more energy to deal with it. We've been told similar things before, but there was a difference. Usually when we're told that someone admires us for adopting transracially it's either by a friend or by someone who is white. So I guess I tend to brush those comments off. But having someone I didn't know who was black tell me such things just made me melt. It was like all my insecure thoughts got a whole lot smaller. Those thoughts were being fought with positive affirmations. And as little Noah reminded me in this article, Martin Luther King, Jr told us "it's the content of your character that matters, not the color of your skin." Or perhaps in our case, "it's the content of your parenting that matters, not the color of your skin."
So to the 2 women at a restaurant bar in Washington DC, I'd like to say "thank you." Thank you for helping me work on my insecurities. Thank you for letting me know how you feel so I don't make up my own interpretations of what you're thinking about us when you look at us. Thank you for giving me positive affirmations and your endorsement. And thank you for giving me a little extra energy that night to get through the rest of our trip. Sometimes God answers our prayers in ways we wouldn't expect. That very morning, according to my journal I had prayed "please Lord, give me a reprieve today. Help me to find a way to enjoy this day in spite of my fatigue and the heat and a cranky baby. Remind me God that I want to help this child see sights across the world and that this trip is just one of many. Lift me up Lord, lift my spirits and my heart and help me to see You." I never would have imagined that the answer to my prayer would come from 2 women at a bar, but it did!
I had been wondering how to write about this experience when I came across this blog post by Shaun Groves this morning. The verse he shared hit home "I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better." -Ephesians 1:17. On that day God blessed me with the Spirit of wisdom and revelation and I came to know Him better. What have you been praying for recently? What lessons have you learned? Are you praying about your insecurities?
Lord, thank You for accepting me as I am with all my insecurities and flaws. Thank You for giving me wisdom when I need it. I am but a flawed human and know that I will continue to struggle with these insecurities, but help me God to turn to You for a reminder. Amen.